We don't breed idiots over here....

Lucky my girl fixed my laptop.  The space bar fell off (with me tugging it and prodding it with a knife; but I thought it resembled those 1990 laptops where the keys come off.)
Anyway, I'm back to a laptop again and have the girl to thank for it.  I couldn't do it; I was figuring I'd have to buy a new one!

So...  I had a great weekend!  Thank you Isobelle and Adelaide!  All we did was eat, draw, write, gossip and drink.  What fun.  There should be weekends allotted to do just that!

Isobelle's house it right on the Great Ocean Road, so I never get sick of the view.  I went to sleep with the sound of the waves pounding the shore each night; so slept like the dead.

    

Who wouldn't want to live with views like this!

It's late here....

It's late here.  I am home, back after spending the weekend with my girlfriend Isa down the coast.  I've got a broken laptop so this won't be a long entry!!!!!

Sigh.  The coast.

Today I did stuff!!

Well today I slept in, then rushed around to walk Sharpie.  If I don't walk him, he is a nightmare puppy.  Rabid!  Only another year or so of this...   :)

My best friend emailed me asking if I wanted to do lunch, and so we met in town at this little restaurant.   I sent this grant to her to apply for; but the trouble was it had to be in today.  So she sat up and did it, lol.  I figure it was meant to be.  Someone sent it to me, I sent it to her the day before it closed and she completes it!  Needless to say she felt exhilarated!

Tomorrow I'm going down to her place for the weekend.  I'm taking my drawing stuff (I'm not very good but she thinks it is practice!) so we will draw, gossip, watch movies, and walk along the beach before I come home.

After lunch, I came home and did a quick clean of the house before jumping online.

Tonight I'm doing dinner with the same friend from last weekend; who was good value and I got to laugh.  Tomorrow I'm doing lunch with another friend; a girl this time.

Things are looking up down here!

Imagine... Having a voice....

Today I got up, lol, that's about it.

I walked Sharpie, (which I'll have to do again before dark!) or he gets seriously naughty!

I got a quote to have some concreting done by some guy; he was tall and slim and went to the wrong house first, so I had to go out the door, open the gate, up to the next door neighbours and get him.  He quoted me $500; and all I have to do is move the damned plants.  Yay!

Sharpie, because it's got a gravelly type rocks out there, gets in and digs and throws tiny rocks all over the yard; and worse, over the concrete!  It's seriously driven me mad!

He left and I cooked soup.   Potato;   :(  which I threw a carrot in there... I shouldn't, but hell, one can only do potatoes in so many ways!  My potato thing I've been on now for 22 days.  I still like them, but am seriously getting sick of potatoes.  I don't know how I'd cope if I didn't slink out for lunch or dinner occasionally!

I've been stuck on youTube since about twelve...   I'm in a mood.  Like Alice down the rabbit hole.  I just find one thing, it leads me onto the next; and the next... And so on

This I just love.  The Penny Orchids singing Your Vacant Eyes.

This too.   Nouela   That all!

I have boring life....

Last year, if anyone had told me I'd be bored for an extended length of time, I'd have laughed at the ludicrousness of it.  Well actually, last year I could barely utter a few words, so brain dead was I!  But when I was well.  Before they maimed me; before I changed doctors - I'm sure you get the drift.

Now my life seems mundane.  Did it always seem like this?  I don't think so...

Today I got up and walked Sharpie.  It was bordering on rain so I marched through the cemetery going a different route this time.  I didn't want to get stuck in the rain, and I didn't want to have my morning cup of tea.

We made it back; and we were dry.  Bonus!  Everyone have a party!!  This is the most exciting thing to happen to me all week!

Then I had to get ready to go into town.  The job finding place is across from Bay City Plaza and I forewent my cup of tea during my walk, because I knew I'd have it here.  And let's face it, a cup of black tea doesn't fill me up; but they still charge four dollars for it! Outlandish!!  (When did I become my mother!!!)

Then I went across the road to meet Susan who was in the office on her own.  So we chattered about jobs before I left again.  I still had a half hour on the metre so I stopped and got my nails done...  And that was it...

I'm sitting here with chipped nails (because I can't keep still); thinking about removing it. But dinner has to be done first.  It's ten past five and Dylan will be here for dinner soon...

And I'm going to kill myself with boredom...

Out and about...

Today I got up early at met my friend for breakfast at the Sheraton.  I don't want to name drop but she's a big deal in the world of writers, a world I want!

We ate as much as we could (diet holding off on breakfast, I had no lunch and I'm having potatoes for dinner!!)  I could have rolled out of there!  She is a laugh; it never ceases to amaze me how well we get on.  I went to stay on the coast with her after my brain was done.  I was at my worst.  In bed by 7 pm and not speaking because I couldn't gather my thoughts!

That is it!  That's all I've done today other than research a job.  I don't know why I never did this before.  I used to like to think I could wing it.  New Flash!  There is no such thing as winging jobs!!!

It's amazing...

A little while ago I was whining that everything was done and it was only 2.  Since then, I've done some stuff on the computer; Ally got home.  Claire called in to visit.  I cooked dinner.  Now it's 1/4 to 8!!!

Just another Manic Monday....

Well.  It's Monday again.  Go figure!

And I have done all the normal things I usually do throughout the day.

I walked Sharpie.  Twice!  I'll have to take him out again later on today because it's supposed to be stormy over the next few days.  God; I'm sick of the rain!  Bring on the sun I say!  Not too hot; nothing over 40.  Oh how I'd love a couple of days that are straight 30+!!!

I got up early; got to get used to living an early rise if I'm to get a job...  And so I sit here at 2.30 pm with everything done!  House is clean.  Washing done.  I've had lunch.
Dog walked.  And I'm scratching my head wondering what I'm going to do now!

I guess I could apply for something...

Sunday.... The Blue Note....

This morning I awoke with a hangover.

Grrrrr I never used to get them, but when they dicked around with my brain, they turned it on.  Sigh...   Hangover - On.  Up and Down emotions - Off.  Can't really complain!

We had a laugh last night.  I was still grinning about it today!  We went to Caruggi Italian Restaurant for dinner which was yum!  I had a pizza (oh move over potato diet!!!) and a skinful of wine whilst I got all the gossip from work.

Then we walked up the road to the Blue Note; a fun piano bar where we, the customers, get to choose what he plays.  It was rockin last night!

All is right in my world; well nearly all.  I need a job.  One that I would like.
I'm going to apply for another job today.  That will be two in two weeks lol.
But I don't want to rush it.....

Only a second of text...

I only have a minute today.

I got up; walked Sharpie as usual.  Then I came home and showered and put a dress on.  I drove to St Leonards and went to the yacht club, as they had jazz there.  I went with Renae my sister in law, and Ian my brother.  It was good fun but I couldn't settle; which sucks.  The sun was shining and it was relaxed!

I came home late (after picking up Sharpie from my Mum's where he ruined the yard!!!) got ready and now I'm waiting for Tim to get here.  Think we'll yap our heads off over dinner and then we go to the Piano Bar.

The guy is really cool; playing whatever we suggest.  I had a great time last week!  It was booked out but he said he'd keep my name in case someone cancelled.  Guess what! Someone cancelled!

So... Fun!

A job!! A job!! My kingdom for a job!

My days seem to flow along the same lines lately.

I get up and walk Sharpie; doing the normal route through the cemetery (I haven't seen a ghost, nor are there any vampires lurking around).

He jumps all over the place and tries to play; unless you're a bird.  Then you are going to die.  They should die.  It is the beginning of swooping season and they are just starting.  One swooped us the other day and I thought Sharpie would pee down his leg, he got such a fright lol

He doesn't run wild but he tries...
Little Shit...

There are a heap of flowers scattered on one grave or another and he sees them, and tries to steal them.

I keep to the pathways and try to keep him in line!

Then I came home and showered, dressed and squeaked out the front door.

I had to go into town to see my job finders.  Not that it is any hardship.  I don't have a lot to do any day and they're nice.  She said that I had set the bar in the job I went for yesterday but that there were problems...  Centrelink thinks I should work 23 hours.  The job is 15 hours.  I don't quite know who makes up their mind at Centrelink but that is crap...  So she explained that if I don't get 23 hours, there goes the relief payment for them, and they wanted it.

Oh well!  They're still trying to get me but I don't think I'll be waiting for them.  So; I've got several here to apply for.  Oh how I hate this, but I could use the interview practice!

Other than that, my day has been housework followed by cooking.

I've got a friend coming down from Melbourne tomorrow, Tim.  I've found a groovy place for dinner and I'll see if I can get into the piano bar, but they're usually booked out for months...

I'm bloody tired...!!!

Yesterday I spent a full on day.  I started the day by walking Sharpie (little cutey) and he did the usual route around the cemetery, pausing for coffee at the Hub, before going home.

After that, I had to get dressed up and go into town.  I went for an interview, the first one since my ABI!   But I'm ready; ready to at least start trying it out.  So the job I went for is with the Geelong Chamber of Commerce and it was held in their boardroom, with plate glass windows that have an excellent view of the bay.

I met my sister for coffee first and she laughed, saying that if I got it, her, my brother and I would all work 2 seconds away from one another!

The job sounded ideal.  3 hours a day, so it will not overly tax me; and varied enough so that I won't get a brain wander in the middle of things...  Actually, it sounded fun.  I haven't heard anything yet but even I couldn't hope to get the first job I've gone for...

After, that I went home and walked the dog again.  I'm sure he was grinning...

My son came over for dinner so I had a roast to make.  The diet went on hold for the day as we ate, drank and basically, didn't give a shit about weight lol.  This morning when I got up, I gave the half a leg of lamb the was left over to Sharpie so I wouldn't eat it  :(

I'm still at 4 kilo lost.  Wish it would hurry and move...

WTF..?

Where has the day gone!???    I looked up and it was over!

I didn't get that much done today, obviously!  I studied a bit for the job I'm going for on Wednesday, but God... The last time I went for a job, about six months ago, I sounded like a half wit!

I figured I knew it all in my head; and I did.  The trouble was getting it to my mouth in a timely fashion!

Just imagine your brain is a big old file cabinet.  Rows of drawers.  All alphabetically ordered!

Someone asks you something, and you go right to were the answer is...   In seconds!

Well its as if my file cabinet has tipped over.  So I have to rifle through all the mess on the floor to find the answer; and sometimes it takes time.  It is getting shorter; I'm getting quicker... But still...

Wonder if it's possible to die of boredom..?

Ho Hum!  I can't rouse myself to do anything today!  I took Sharpie down to the beach and stopped for a cup of tea (or 2).   My friend Tom called while I was there and asked if I wanted to do a walk.  I said I was in the middle of mine, sitting at the Sailors!  So he turned up, looking very spiffy in a suit.  His brother is a minister and was having a farewell service; enough said...

Hmm, apart from that... Nothin!  Nada!

I've cleaned the house on the inside.  I only did it yesterday but dog hair gets everywhere. It is moulting season (I seriously wish I'd have thought about that...)  So after cleaning inside, I did the outside too, which is in a mess due to the new lawn.

Its already 20 to 4!!!   I feel unsettled.  Feel like I should be doing something; but have no energy either!

I think I'll have an early tea, and early to bed!  An early night!  That's what I need!

It's raining... :( Again!

After two days of sunshine, it's raining again...

I took the dog for a walk; I tried to get in the "holding" off rain, where it isn't falling quite as much as before.  But getting wet isn't too bad today, it isn't cold.

I've been researching a couple of jobs.  One I have an interview for and another I'm going to apply for.  I didn't realise that there is so much work in looking for for a damned job!
There is.  I have to address the selection criteria of a job I'd quite like and the other that I've got an interview for; research the company and get up with all their news.

Trouble is, my mind starts to wander when I do it.  I don't think that is my brain.  In fact I think of always been a mind wanderer at anything like that...  So how do I get a job?

Damn.  I'm going to have to sit here until it sinks in.  :(

Wow! A real live friend!!!

Today I did the normal walk with Sharpie (who loved it) before coming home and getting ready to go out for lunch.

I met this girl at my course.  She was normal.  The others weren't; well weren't normal to me.  They were at various stages of rotting teeth; the young ones you could just picture what they would look like when they got older.  Sadly, they couldn't see it...

We scurried off for coffee most days.

She is a nursing sister; well was, at Western Health.  We get along like a house on fire!
The course finished but we went out for lunch to Jack Rabbit Winery and had a fantastic lunch.  She is here because her kid moved here.  In English, she had no friends.  Neither do I.  Seemed ideal!

So off we went and sat and ate, drinking a bottle of red and gossiping our heads off.  It's one of the only times I have felt relatively normal since being here!

Next week we are going off to Mr Willis.

A Beautiful Day!!

Today the sun was out!!  Yay!!  It's only meant to be here for a day or two and then we are back to winter.  Oh well.  A day or two is fantastic.

I got up and walked Sharpie through the cemetery, stopping for my usual coffee half way around.  He likes going out!  Being seen as quite the dog around town!

Then I came home and fluffed before going to the gym in Barwon Heads and having a work out.   I use the term 'work out' loosely'; I'm the youngest in the room and the others are varying degrees of fitness...

Then I came home and showered and dressed and met a friend for beer for the arvo.

Now I'm waiting for my daughter to come and grab me and Sharpie, take us to Eastern Beach for a walk.  The third walk for the day!

The weight is still coming off... Slowly!!!

Oh God... Today I went to the last of my classes...

Today I went to the last of my classes run through my "back to work" people.  We have had sessions on "hygiene".  On washing your hair and putting on deodorant prior to going to an interview.   If there has to be a whole lesson on that, I'm tipping they wouldn't get an interview.  Enough said.

There was only the four of us left. The rest; God knows!
The upside is I made a friend, and she's normal!

A nursing sister from Melbourne who doesn't know anyone here!  We decided that we would do lunch each week, starting with Jack Rabbit Winery on Thursday.

So that consumed my day.  

I came home and walked the dog around the cemetery.  The weather was supposed to be nice; instead there was a cold wind and it started to look downright spooky so I hot footed it home.  Vacuumed and tidied (back to vacuuming every single damned day) and then collapsed in a lounge chair.

Bummer.  I didn't get my TV remote yet; which sucks because I can't watch a downloaded show.  Pity that's all I watch.  I can hear Home and Away on the TV; makes me glad I only watch downloaded!!!

Where do they go..?

Yesterday was hard.

We went to my great nephews birthday party; he's one year old and an absolute little darling!  There were all kinds of people there chatting and drinking, but I couldn't get that it was Father's Day out of my head.

I think since having my brain issue, that I look at things differently now.   There have been millions of movies and talk about life after death; but when I almost died, there was nothing.   Not a thing.  A great big zero!  Makes me think we just lie down and stop.  But Dad can't just stop! Disappear!!

What was the point then?
What are we here for?

And that makes me think about
Emma Louisa Shepard, age 4.
She died April 8, 1859.
Her tombstone is where I go walking and it doesn't matter which way I go, I always see it.
It's a damned big cemetery too.
What did she do or achieve in her 4 years..?

And who leaves flowers on a little girls grave that died in 1859..?  There is obviously someone that feels as I do...

Father's Day xx

Happy Father's Day Dad.  I love and miss you.  xx

Getting harder...

I'm still on my diet but I don't know how long I'll last!

Potatoes; after 4 days are beginning to taste the same!  Let alone the reality that I've had to go out to two do's; take my potato and then sit back while everyone else has roast pork!

Although I'll admit; I feel better.  Even my hands that have been playing up with sore joints, are better.  There is next to no pain at all in them!  I could open any jar!  They told me that the spud, has a natural anti inflammatory...  But it will come back with the reintroduction of food.

Sigh....

Losing weight the easy way....

I've now lost 2.5 kilo in 3 days...  I've started this new diet and it is working.  I can't believe it.  And I've had 2 glasses of red each night before I went to bed!

It's morning here.

I'm about to get up and shower and then...  Well I don't know what I'm going to do then.
No Sharpie to worry about...  I just may go into town and walk around!

Success! My pipe is good!

Well my neighbour fixed my pipe and it's working great; not a leak in sight!  Till the next thing goes!  I bought this house in December, moving in on the 20th.  So far I've had the pipe, the shower screen several times (it's gone again at the moment), the loo, the tap in the bathroom; I think that is all for now!  It's enough!

Ally took Sharpie to Melbourne yesterday.  She's not coming back until Sunday.    :(
I miss him! (and her, but she has to learn to get a life!)  I bought him a "control harness" which should control his walking!  He loves to run off on me, at the beginning of the walk (he's got energy to burn) and the end of it (he can sniff home) and he pulls my arm out of the socket!

Yesterday I cleaned the house from rooftops to rafters; knowing the dog was on a sleep over, I thought "Yay! No dog hair!"  I don't have enough yard to have him outside all the time; I should have thought about that...  but he's cute as a button (except when he's biting...) so worth it.

Today I wondered what I would do...

I got up and walked the same path I walk when with him.  Stopped at the  coffee place, except I had black tea due to the diet; and then I wondered why I was paying $4 bucks for a weak black tea!

I came home and went to the gym for a workout.  On the way home, my brother phoned and said he was going to my Mum's so I drove over there, grabbed them and took them to the pub for the afternoon.

And now, at 5pm I'm home.  And I haven't had time to re-varnish floor where he cut a hole in it yesterday so he could fix the pipe ...  I'll do it tomorrow!  (at least its not open!!)

Fixing my pipes....

I happen to live across the road from a plumber...  I didn't know he was one until this damned pipe burst and I happened to have asked him "God. Do you know where I'd get a plumber??!"

He is over here now, covered in spider webs, crawling around under the house.  I can't even look in the huge hole that is cut in my floorboards (where the dining room table goes.)   It makes my skin crawl!  All I can think of is that it better be back together before tonight!
I'd hate to think of what crawls out of there at night!

There is webs and dirt and bits of old wood and stuff!  He has surfaced several time; each time looking dirtier than the last...

I hope he fixes it!!!!