Gardening in the sun...

That's what I should be doing... Instead, I'm inside, writing. Only pausing to break when I have to. 

This morning, I had to go and see a specialist at Epworth Hospital, in Geelong. I can say that is the best hospital I've seen, and I've seen a few with 27 brain operations. But wow, this place is fantastic! But I regress...

So, I had 2 hours off going to the specialist, saying the weird 'it's as though I'm drunk.' And I haven't had alcohol in a week, and then only a stubby because it was bloody hot! 

I fall down. A lot. I fell down, face first while walking the dog at the cemetery! I told my partner in between tears of self-pity to just cover me in dirt and leave me there. He was shaking with laughter (bastard) when he saw I was okay and helped me up.

The doctor worked out in about ten minutes that I'm having too much Gabapentin, so I have reduce that. If I don't, I'll continue to walk like a drunk... Which personally, I think is better that the nonstop pain! I said to him the pain is manageable now... Unlike when I came last time you were my last hope. I was going to kill myself if he couldn't alleviate it. 

And he alleviated it! Now he wants to take that away? Hmmm I'll have to think about that!

So... as soon as I got back here, I made a cup of coffee and sat to write... 

The Squeeze is at work - where all good men should be!

A job? What the hell is that?

Well I could say I'm worried about being jobless. (woe is me! putting my hand to my brow)...  But the reality is that walking out of my job, still with 3.8 years of work to go until retirement may have been the best decision for me! I only realised upon leaving how much I hated it. How they had stripped my confidence!

Oh don't worry, money will be tight. It will get a hell of a lot tighter I'd say; but aside from the money, I'm happy! Happier than I've been in months.

My garden looks divine. My house is in great shape and I'm writing again. 

It hasn't been easy. I don't think I've put pen to paper (or in this case, fingers to keyboard) for a whole lot of years but now that I'm back into it, I wonder how I ever existed without it!

It's as if I'm telling a story out of my head - and I'm reading it!

Annoyingly we're off to the Vic Market today to meet our kids and shop! I love them really, but writing has me again and I just think 'get out of my way and let me work!'

Wonder if it will last!

It's now nighttime.

I went to the Vic Market and shut up about time wasted on the way. I just drove.

It ended up a fantastic day! We met friends who all congregate there. My son came (flying the flag as he was the only one of our kid's there) and his wife. I got to hold my granddaughter - (who is gorgeous!) She has the bluest eyes and the best lashes!

How's those for eye lashes!

Back on the Unemployed List!

I started work about four years ago for Barwon Health in the department of SWARH. Although I didn't love going to work (I saw my time as a lady of leisure, which doesn't really work if you're penny pinching!) but I liked it well enough and figured I only have another 3 years until I can be old and pension myself off.

My boss exited stage left and a shoe salesman came to take his place...  That just happened to live up the road from the CEO and they used to walk their dogs together (how cute)  We weren't getting rid of him anytime soon. I worked mainly with five others, two got out immediately when they could but they are young, The three of us left, well we are older - it's not so easy to find work then!

A new guy started who came an introduced himself... And told me he was there to do my job. WTF!!!!

The Wilds of Halls Gap

Here I am.  I’m in Halls Gap; a beautiful little town surrounded by mountains in the pouring rain. It’s beautiful here. I can lie in bed and watch the kangaroos grazing outside. 

Last night when we arrived it was pitch black at 6.30. So dark you couldn’t see anything without using your phone torch. The kangaroos were in a pack of about 50. This morning they are much sparser but still here at least. 

When I get up, we will probably brave the weather and explore some!

Yay! It’s the weekend!

The weekend rolled around finally! 

Last night we went out for dinner to Bistro Plume; a groovy little French restaurant that was smack bang in the middle of nowhere - and full. It was yum and unlike the Melbourne places we dine at, we could hear each other because the music was low! 

When we first sat down I thought what the hell were we going to have to say to one another after 20+ years. Amazingly we didn’t struggle at all!

Tonight I’m going to the football with my daughter who has taken a night off from husband and kids. Hopefully the Cats will be back on a winning track. 

Then we are going to dinner at Pistol Pete’s. Blues bar for a late dinner after the squeeze picks us up. Then home to bed. Yay. A normal life is beginning’