So what makes me think it will work this time..?
I don't know for sure. He could change his mind; and I'm ready for it... And not in a ugly way either, I'm just aware that it could all be for nothing. I'd have told the new squeeze and said goodbye for nothing. My heart would be a little harder from being trampled on so many times.
But I don't think so...
His kids are grown, and that was a major issue; made worse by the reality that I didn't handle it as I should have. Okay, I missed the opportunity to be friends with him but I can try it now he is grown up. The two older kids, I managed quite well with them.
The Harridan. I just have to learn that she WILL try to step in and fuck things up again. I don't know why because she sure doesn't want him, but in reality I don't think she will phase me that much. She can't really do anything; she has no more kids to throw at me :)
The best thing about suffering from Brain Damage (lol which sounds bloody hilarious); is the fact that instead of wildly swinging on an emotional roller coaster, now I'm even. I haven't got anything to cry about and haven't had for years. I don't get angry or feel angry anymore; yet I used to feel it as a white hot needle in the eye!
He is going for a job in Geelong this week and if he gets it, we move into living together in a month or two. If he doesn't, we move into dating. I'm ok with either of those scenarios but I guess if he gets the job, we start knuckling down and saving some money. We have a very small window of opportunity to save... It is nearly over now so I'd like to get on with the rest of my life!