Tuesday, October 17, 2017
Up and down… Weeeeeeeeeee
If I was a roller-coaster, I’d be enormous fun! I am so up and down at the moment it is not funny. One minute, I’m in the depths of despair; the next I’m rocking about the house to some weirdo clown music!
Okay; the clown music is not organ/carnival music, it is electric guitar and the clown is Puddles the Clown. This guy virtually single handedly changed my perception of clowns. I was coulrophobic; which in the scheme of things, means I’m a clown hater. But anyone that has to hide their face behind all that makeup is a John Wayne Gacy underneath I think. Still, I have to admit I kind of like Puddles. You can search him out on YouTube; just look for Puddles Pity Party!
But I regress…
So I hit rock bottom yesterday and by last night, I am literally dancing and singing around the house with the vacuum cleaner. I can’t think of any one thing that happened to make me so satisfied with life for that second. I still only have my part time job with a miniscule wage that accompanies it. I still owe on my house. I’m still single. I’m still waiting for my life to start up again!
And yet strange as it may seem, I like being single. Oh not all the time; it is nice to have someone to go out with every so often. Maybe see a band with. But I’ve been out with a few while single this time and I think “nah…”
My house I’ll be paying off forever, but the alternative of not having one; being at the mercy of some owner or agent… Kicked out when they feel like it and moving; packing everything you own again and again!
My job… okay the money is atrocious but I quite like it. It isn’t too stressful and they gave me the chance to get my brain working again.
Posted by Mistress at 1:05 PM