Monday, October 16, 2017
A ‘black dog’ kind of week
Every so often I have a ‘black dog’ kind of week. This would be one of them…
It all began when I missed out on the job I went for and I have spiraled ever since. I don’t know how I am supposed to get a job when I can’t talk about it, well not at length anyhow. As the people here would attest too, I can belt out a design quicker than most and they love them.
I am pretty certain I can still do project management; but there is a lingering doubt because I haven’t done it. When I went for this interview, I said I have 11 years as a senior project manager for the largest health service in Victoria. I know all too well everything that these people are going through; I’m living it! And believe me, I do; right down to the speaking over me when I pause or when they stand in a circle, they edge me out just a little. Oh don’t get me wrong; they don’t even realise that they do it!
It is stupid really. I know I’ll get something. I’ve got two years until things get dire but the reality is that I want one now. I want to start my life now. I want to be the ‘me’ that I’m going to be, now. I want to be challenged!
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