I've been unable to sleep for the last couple of weeks, getting about 6 hours. It seems, gone is the fantastic life of 10-12 hours of absolute deep sleep! Then there is the emotions! I keep arguing with myself!
Yesterday, when we got back from the music festival, I was so buggered that I went to bed. Got back at 1 pm to a clean house, all I did was empty my case and put my washing on and then staggered to bed! I was still awake at 11 pm. I wanted to kill my brain but thoughts went around and around!
So the Squeeze...
I think in reality, that I don't want to go anymore than the Harridan wants me there. Admittedly for differing reasons. She will be manipulating again, but stuff it. I just don't care.
So I have my answer. I won't go and stuff the one upmanship. The Squeeze can rest easy on that score. But having said that, I won't be put in a box again. I mean either I'm going to be in a relationship with him and be a part of his life; or I'm not.