12 Days to Go

In 12 days I'll be in hospital, probably going under where some guy is going to take a saw to my spine...  And I'm excited!

It's Easter Saturday around here and I am pausing in cooking and cleaning to blog.  Cooking because the Squeeze's kid, wife and baby are coming to stay. Most people would be groaning at the thought, but I'm lucky. I love all my kid's partners and the Squeeze's are mine too; so that is that.

I loved my son's wife - who was a nursing sister at the hospital in ED. One night she got bashed severely and wasn't the same since then. She had a bleed on the brain and ended up killing herself - which was devastating to us all. It is a pity you don't find that stuff out until after. 

The bleed in her brain made sense to me because she has several accidents; writing two cars off. When I researched, people with brain bleeds often commit suicide. But I wonder how I didn't put it all together before and do something.

I try to remain anonymous on here, but this is a pic of my gorgeous son and his beautiful wife!

 

13 Days...

It's funny. My whole existence is focusing on this operation on my spine. I think it sounds stupid; if I was reading this I'd think this woman was stupid. But... If this stops the pain I can live a normal life! 

It's Good Friday and here I am, I don't want to go anywhere because of pain (that, and the fact I look like a balloon who doesn't give a shit how I look. That is to a point true; I couldn't care less... But if you feel awful, you look awful :(   Time enough to fix that when I get out of hospital!

I'm an exceedingly house proud, to the point where you could eat off the floors they are so clean. The garden's - same. But here I am, taking the Squeeze approach. Well, not as bad as the Squeeze, but the garden looks shabby and weed infested; unlike its pristine self!

And I'm really looking forward to being able to clean the house from roof tops to rafters! Get out side and garden! 

So... Aside from the garden and house, I'm thinking of going someplace on a holiday the last week I'm recuperating! Some place close like New Caledonia or Phuket! So now I'm going to research!

14 Days and Counting!!

It is now only 14 days until I get operated on my spine. I can't wait. Although this seems seriously terrifying; both financially; my neurosurgeon charges $3580.05 and the rebate in $1,580.05 and that doesn't begin to count the same for the anesthetist and the excess I pay for the hospital... But I can't wait.

It will be so nice to walk normally! Not having to cringe; walk gingerly; walk like I have a stick up my ass! Normal! Yay!! I can't wait...

Today I had to do a lot of running around for the hospital (figuratively!); give blood and do an ECG and fill out the forms online! And I had to get a roadworthy on my car and run around and get it so my girlfriends daughter could come and pick it up (and it looks fab the car! Makes me think I should have kept it!!)

And I did all that in between working the day!

Roll on now I say, because it is the end of the work week and it is Easter! So - have a happy Easter everyone!

OH let's do a bit of surgery on your back!

Well here we go again! I'm going for surgery! Not my brain, or my hips - but my spine. It sounds like fun! (yes... that was sarcasm!) They are going to open me up, and then 2 or 3 bits from the bottom of my spine, they're going to cut the bone out so it doesn't impeach on my spinal column - and I can't wait! (that wasn't sarcasm)

But I'm sick of it!

I'm sick of it hurting all the time. I'm sick of the steroids! I'm sick of not being able to walk; of being a fat cow. So 16 days... and everything will be different! 

Bring it on! Oh God! Bring. It. On.

A Week... In My life

You guessed it. This will be the shortest blog ever  :)

We worked all week... I limped around a lot. Why? Well my Neuro suggested that stretching or bending could increase the size of the disc spaces in my spine, there by alleviating the strangulation of my spinal column. I mean it made sense; at the supermarket I bend over and lean on the trolley, not realising that was what I was doing!  Anyway, it didn't work. I did it, but I think something got jammed somewhere because now I can barely walk and that comes with a lot of sweat and swearing.

See! Down the bottom they don't look right!

It is Sunday today; only five more days until I see my Neuro again and he'll decide if it is Spinal Stenosis or not after checking out the MRI scans. If it is; God... I could kiss him (lucky he is very good looking and young!) but even if he was old and ugly, having an answer after years of pain will be astonishing!

Now I know he isn't going to whip out a scalpel and operate straight away but I'm going to vote for it as soon as possible. It no point trying me on meds. I've tried them all! Most I'm intolerant to, some I'm downright allergic too.